Some Recent Thoughts...

On my time in Africa -

Beautiful country but not for long term at this point. If God called me here for a reason then, it must be about what I can take away with me...?

Chocolate and chicken taste much better over here.

South Africa is cold.


On me -

I am a people pleaser. Is this a good thing?

Hot showers are good.

I thrive on being busy, but lazy days are a good thing as well. Busyness is a convenient excuse for many things.

I miss diving.


On relationships -

Good friendships take much time and effort, but pay back many times over what you invest.

God has been teaching me so much of the value of community over the past few years, and how it is such a pure and beautiful expression of His church. Yet I still have a strong conviction that my life is about travel and moving on to new places, which inevitably means I have to leave communities that I become a part of behind. I love the thrill of a new adventure, but it hurts me to know that I will have to say goodbye to whatever I start building. How do these things reconcile in His greater plan for my life...? I'm not sure yet.

I will miss my friends at Newsong.

Singleness is my default setting, my comfort zone. I have always assumed that singleness = holiness as there is nothing worse or more distracting than being in a relationship for the wrong reasons. But recently I have become aware that my reasons for being single could also be wrong... because I can be independant, much less faff etc but ultimately I feel more secure to declare my heart a no-go area. I won't let anyone touch it. These are not the reasons God wants me to be single, and could lead to as much pain as being in a wrong relationship.

Single is definitely the way to go at the moment!!


On plans for the future -

Looking forward to coming back. Time at home over the summer, and then make a move to London. Scary step financially, but He will provide for what He calls me to. In the New Year it's time for YWAMage in Australia and then most definitely back to Hoga for some more diving and to see my friends there. After that, maybe back to uni?? Maybe try and get some training in underwater film?? Who knows... watch this space!